Saturday, April 22, 2006

still so much shit going on. I feel like my life has literally fallen apart around me and now I have to pick up the peices and go on. I'm not sure I can do that though. I feel like I just want a different life now. I keep hearing ppl say it is going to get better, I am just having trouble seeing it getting any better...

Sunday, April 09, 2006

I thought I should break my blogging absence. so here I am. I am not in a good place right now. I am hurt, alone, weak, tired, and don't know what to do. I don't know what the next few weeks are gonna look like, but I have a feeling they won't be pretty. I want to be better, but I am afaid of what it is going to cost. I feel like I am trapped and the only way(s) out will turn out bad. maybe being trapped isn't such a bad thing? but I know in reality it is....