Friday, December 31, 2004

New years Day fetivities...

We are in luck.... Finding Neverland is still playing at several of our local theaters, so we will be going to see it Saturday Jan 1, 2005!!!!!!!! I don't care if I am half dead I am going to go..... so now we just have to figure out what time... here is when and where it is playing....

  1. Lakeland.... 12:45, 3:45, 7:30, 10:15
  2. Clinton.... 1:00, 4:00, 7:05, 9:45
  3. Northpark...... 12:10, 3:00, 7:00, 9:40

Of course it can't be playing at Tinseltown, which is the theater closes to both of us.... but that is okay.... maybe we can grab something to eat before or after (no fast food) Hey, Debra, if you are free and want to come let us know, we can make it a fun girls night or something.... maybe we can go shopping too, just because we all like shopping.... so yeah .... I figure we will probably end up going to one of the 7ish shows as roo will need to sleep when she gets off work.... so yeah that is all

ycuk...

I still feel like crap... I think the headache from last night might be the beginning of a sickness... when he got home I had a fever so I went to bed... I slept for more than 12 hours.... the headache is gone but now I have a yuck feeling of wooziness and just general crapiness..... I don't feel like moving... I should go cook the little ppl lunch being that it is almost 1pm, but they are content right now and they just had cereal about an hour and a half ago... we are supposed to go out to forest for dinner and fireworks tonight, but it might rain... oh well.... I have to feel better tomorrow because roo and I are going to see Finding Nerverland!!!!!!!!!!!!! my living room is cluttered with little wooden blocks that would try to kill be if I walked to the kitchen to get more water, so I will just sit here.... I feel like I should be doing something, buti just can't get motivated.... maybe I will take a nap, but then the little ppl would destroy my house, so maybe I will just sit here.... yeah....


oh, by the way, happy last day of 2004.... Bring on 2005....

oh and one more thing... for those of you that know Megan R. be praying for her.... some crap going on that I will tell you all about in person if you ask, but I will not be putting it on the web for any random person to come across and read.... thanks....

Thursday, December 30, 2004

my head is going to explode....

today is awful.... I just wish that my head would go ahead and explode so that I would not be in this pain.... and to make it worse the little ppl are not listening at all and are screaming at the top of their lungs.... he won't be home until after 8pm tonight and didn't seem to care when I called him... the only other person that I could think to call at the moment of pure insanity was shopping so couldn't talk to me............. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........................... I hate days like this.... I did get a few things done today.... mostly taking down my christmas tree... I need to take a video game back to blockbuster.... I got it with my mom's account and it is already a day late.... she is going to be pissed off... I just want to go crawl under a rock for a while.... and to top it all off it is still 65 degrees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the crap???????????? isn't is supposed to be winter already.... we had like one week of winter where like 2 snow flakes fell from the sky........ sometimes I really miss MA.... but for more reasons that the cold white weather.... that is another story that I don't care to share right now however..... mmmmmmm.... yeah anyways... I am going to go sedate some little ppl now so that maybe my head will stop hurting..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Christmas #4 and other random thngs

Well, since I haven't told you all about Christmas with the in-laws, and iI am sure you are dieing to hear, here it is.... it was pretty uneventful.... I got what I picked out the week before when I went shopping with MIL and so did everyone else.... we ate good food, as usual.... then we left.... A came home with us.... he stayed til mon.... other than that nothing happened...

in other news, my Christmas tree is down.... I have been informed that it should be left up until Jan 6 (Epiphany) but I just had to take it down... I also cleaned out the shed's attic today (yes our shed has an attic how cool is that) any ways.... now I am just sitting here thinking about how I should be cleaning a such.... so yeah...


Why is it that bandaids don't like to stick to the palm of your hand? I got a little cut on my palm and I put a band aid on it but it is not sticking for anything... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

so yeah

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

it is offical now.....

I am no longer a member of AOL.... yes I was still using aol until today... I am curently downloading AIM so I can still talk to all the the important ppl, but that will be the extent of my involvment with the wvil emipire of aol... also I have downloaded foxfire, so I am no longer using IE... I do have a question for all you computer geeks though...how do I make it so when I try to get on the web using Netzero (the thingy I am using instead of aol for now) it doesn't use IE? I have foxfire as my default and it still is using IE???? If you can help me out just leave me a note... yeah... so not too much else has happened today... just been cleanong up the compputer and all... so yeah ........

Monday, December 27, 2004

girls group...

so I still haven't told you all about Christmas #4 but that will come later... this is just a note to self and all others that need to be remided (or told as the case may be) our girls group is going to be at my house Tues night... it is just easier that way... If you need aride, debra, just let me know by like 5ish and I will come get you and we will get you home somehow... yeah...

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Christmas #3...

yes, I realize it is a little odd to be numbering my Christmases, but that is the only way to keep them straight... didn't take many pics this morning cuz it was Christmas at our house with stockings and all so it was pretty crazy... I did get a really nice watch and 4 tickets to the Genny Ownes concert on jan 6th... So who wants to go with me??? the 3 highest bidders will get to go...lol anyways I also go some candles and other fun things.... soon we will be off to Christmas #4 at the in-laws... it will be fun even though I already know what everyone got because my mother in law can't go shopping without me... that is okay though cuz I got some cool stuff that I will tell you all about later... the kids are having fun playing with all their new stuff and he is taking a shower....

Oh I have happy news... tomorrow is our 2yr anniversery and we have a babysitter... A volunteered to watch the little ppl for a while so we could have dinner and such... then I am sure there will be role playing afterwards.... that is okay though because at least we will go out.... we still have a $50 gift card to wally world that grandaddy gave us for Christmas so we might go do some shopping too... well gotta get the little ppl ready to go to forest I am sure I will tell you all about it tonight... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 24, 2004

Christmas Eve dinner...

Debra and I cooked our first holiday meal tonight... it was tastey and there were no catastrophies... Yippie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


me and Debra with our dinner Posted by Hello



the dinner Posted by Hello


the ham... it was yummy Posted by Hello

Christmas # 2

this morning we did Christmas with my mom... here are the pics of that....


stacey under the tree Posted by Hello


stacey and catlin with their new stuff Posted by Hello


stacey with her bus Posted by Hello


catlin with her baby stuff Posted by Hello

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Day 14

so you are wondering what day 14 means, right? well, it is the # of days since AR's car wreck... but it is also the number of days she was in a coma.... yes you read that right, WAS in a coma... she is awake now, and out of ICU... she is pretty alert when she isn't on pain meds, and very responsive to touch when she is... I didn't know that it would feel this good to see her moving her arms and legs around, trying to take off the things they have her hooked up to... I think I just smiled the whole time I was up there.... so happy right now... and relieved... God truely is good....

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

the dinner roll incident

so Friday we are going to eat dinner (supper, or what ever you call that night time meal) with Debra... we are going to cook at her house... it will be fun... last night I went out and got all the yummy food to cook... here is what I got:
  • ham (yummy)
  • sweet potatoes (which I don't eat but everyone else does. sure hope Debra knows how to cook them)
  • green beans
  • potatoes (to cook with the green beans)
  • corn
  • salad (debra do you guys have salad dressing at your house? I forgot to buy some but I can get some if you all don't have any... and I remembered that you don't like iceburg lettuce, that was you right?)
  • baby carrots
  • dinner rolls (the whole point of this post will soon be revealed)

so got home put it all away and life was dandy ( I think I left some stuff out but I can't think of what now) and today was going good... I put the girls to the table to eat lunch and I went to get something from the van... I was gone less than 3 mins... I come back in, walk to the table and see the dinner rolls on the floor under the table!!!!!!!!! each one had one bite taken out of it and my 3yr old little person was hiding in the bathroom... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... why can't I have anything in my house that doesn't get ruined by the little ppl? I am so mad.... yeah so now I have to go buy more dinner rolls, so if you think of anything else we need let me know and I will pick it up....

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

new clothes...


here Catlin is in her new outfit from poppy Posted by Hello



tell me this isn't the cutest pic. ever Posted by Hello


and here is my big girl... she looks so grown up Posted by Hello

Pictures from Christmas at Poppy's


it is catlin with her new baby Posted by Hello


and catlin with her huge carebear Posted by Hello


stacey with her little mermaid Posted by Hello


and stacey with her tigger Posted by Hello


I know you are wondering where I have been...

First let me apoligize to my ladies, I am so sorry that I didn't contact anyone and let them know I wasn't going to be around tonight... things kinda went crazy really quick and randomness happened...

now on to where I have been for the last 30 or so hours... well I was talking to Mrs. L on yahoo last night and K told her to ask me to come up there... I was hesitant at first but there has been alot going on so I thought it might be good to get away... so I called him and he said it was fine... oh and they asked if MR could ride with me if I came... so Icalled L & K to tell them I was coming, called MR and told her to get ready and I was off... all of this happened in a half hour time frame and with getting the little ppl ready that is quick.... we didn't arrive til 9:30pm but that was okay cuz no one was even close to sleepy... we hung out and played "Remember When..." for a while (stop racking your brain it isn't a real game we just sat around talking about all the things that happened when we where all together) then we decided to go have some fun... me, k, h, mr, and N (one of thier friends up there) went to wally world (a half hour away), bought spray paint, and the insanity began.... now this is the country so you don't get in much, if any, trouble for the insanity that began... then we got back to the house about 2:30am... hung out, put little ppl to sleep and went to sleep ourselves...

today was equally fun, and insane... we went to this creek in the woods behind the house, and hung out for about 2hrs this morning (no little ppl)... we built a little fire and sat around mostly.... then went home for lunch... then we went back on the 4 wheeler after lunch and took the little ppl. everyone ended up in the FREEZING cold creek cept for me and the little ppl...by the time we got back home it was time for me, the little ppl, and mr to head back to the city... we arrived home around 8:30pm and then I had to go grocery shopping... I feel bad that I just up and left but it was a blast... much needed fun and insanity... yeah it was great...

we aren't having group Thurs, but I will be at your house Fri. Debra!!!!! I got all the stuff tonight... it is going to be so fun... and I told roo she could come too... yippiee...

I am so exhausted but very refreshed.... spent alot of time just sitting admiring God's handywork and realizing that He truely is way bigger than I could ever fathom.... I am glad to be back in the city now though... the counrty is nice place to visit but it is nice to be back....

I do need to talk to everyone about girl's group.... I think that the new year is going to bring on some changes but we will talk more about that later... I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 19, 2004

One down, three to go...

Well, we had Christmas today with my dad... the first of four for us this year... I got a great comfy pair of jamies... they are black and pink and shiney and they came with a robe :) I also go this cool picture that matches my black and gold curtians, a nifty tart candle thing, gift card to wally world, and some Curve... the girls got a ton of really cute stuff.. I will post pics later... some time this week we will be doing Christmas with mom, then we will go Christmas here on Christmas morning, and later in the day we will go to the in-laws for Christmas... so much to do... AR is doing better... they have started reducing the meds that are keeping her sedated and the pressure n her brain is doing good... maybe she will be able to wake up soon...

I got to see my S and L last night.. it was so fun, but too short as always... I wish we were closer so we could get together more often, but we aren't... so yeah...

I have some news but won't be sharing it til after Christmas... mostly because it isn't really my news and one of the main parties involved doesn't want it to ruin ppls holiday, but it might be affecting us too.... so yeah...

I can't wait til Christmas... it is going to be so much fun.... the girls are really into it this year... so yeah................


Thursday, December 16, 2004

Sorry...

so guys, sorry I wasn't at small group tonight... I got lost in another world (almot literally) and then on my way back I decided that something someone said may be right so I didn't come to small group... I am sure I will be around, but tonight it was more important for me not to be there... and I am really glad now that I didn't go because his mother called me to let me know that they are just going to come here on Sat instead of us going there... so now I have to clean my entire house by 2pm Sat... grrrrrrrrr... I do think it makes more since for them to come here because we have to go shopping so that means we would just be coming right back to Jackson anyways, but couldn't they have decided this last week....anyways... oh for the somewhat daily update on AR... she has a fever of 102.4 so they have her under an ice blanket... if that doesn't work they will have to pack her in ice... but they clamped the drain tube for an hour today and then the pressure started to build so they unclamped it... they will try again tomorrow... it was a good sign that it took an hour for the pressure to start building though... her mom is starting to stress alot more... today made one week... I hurt for her and her family... mostly I hurt because I feel like she is my kid too... God, help her get through this...

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Top Story?????

so I am confused and need help understanding this... Why is it that the most important thing they could find to be the "Top Story" on the news at 10pm was Ole Miss getting a new head coach? is it just me or is that really the most important thing that happened today? I almost chopped my finger off, maybe that can be tomorrow's top story... I just find it somewhat silly that on the 30 min news broadcast they spent almost half of their time talking about this guy... maybe it was a slow news day... or maybe ppl in MS just have their priorities all screwed up... so yeah... I am done ranting now...

where is everyone????

man it is quiet today.... no one is around and I am bored... oh well. I guess I will just go and do something productive... see what you guys have reduced me too...

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so I haven't been around lately.... not too much going on... AR was in a wreck (not like you guys didn't know that) saw her tonight... it is hard to see her like that and not be able to do something... so Christmas is almost here... lots of fun... we will be venturing out to WEST on Sun to see my dad and all them and do our Christmas there, but before that we have to go to his parents on Sat because it has been 3 wks since they last saw us.... heavan forbid.... then we will be back there for Christmas day chaos... yippee... we are doing Christmas with mom sometime next week too... Christmas wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go here and there and all... we get paid tomorrow (I say we but mean he because I never get paid...) yeah so nothing is going on right now other than one little person being almost sick and the other on not letting her sleep... yeah... OH but I do get to go out with S & L and whoever else Sat night... it will be fun...

Thursday, December 09, 2004

not so angry...

tonight was good... I did find out some things that changed my attitude, still don't have all the answers but feeling better about the whole situation... J said that the thing that starts up in Jan is going to be me, C, and J (a J that I don't think many of you are farmiliar with, but he is a great guy) anyways... A is supposedly going to start talking to us all about it soon (better be soon Jan is runing up on us) I feel better now, but am still confused about some things, not angry with the whole situation anymore... just fustrated with how it has been handled... so yeah things will work out... I just need to not jump to conclusions and wait for all the details, which I am sure that someone has... anyway... so we will be moving the piano tomorrow, if anyone can help let me or roo know... other than that... oh I had a nervous breakdown today (only a small one though) now he and mom think I need to see a Dr. yeah... maybe they are right... who knows... we will see what happens... they think that I am stessed... I don't think that I am stressed, I have little to be stressed about... something is wrong, but I doubt that it is stress... so yeah... hey roo don't forget to call JS about his truck... night all

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

just thinking outloud....

I really wish I knew what to do, what to say.... I feel like anything I say or do will come across as being selfish, or trying to make myself look good... I know that I am a crappy person... I know that I am not as good as the other choice, but hey, at least I am honest.... I guess there is such a thing as too much honesty though... I have too many problems to be effective... is that it... am I too messy? is there such a thing at too messy, and if so where is the line... maybe it is okay to be messy, as long as no one else knows... they are all messy, but they try to hide it... by the way I am still angry but it is slowly going away... God has a plan, I just have to trust Him... sometimes I get really sad over all this... I just hope that some day they will be able to get past whatever it is that makes them like this... I pray they will have a change of heart... I hope they will listen to what God is saying... in a few years this is all going to be just a memory that has made me stronger, but right now in the middle of it all it really sucks... I do hope that what they are doing is going to make a difference... I honestly hope they are doing the righ thing... i just hate the situation, I know what the kids have said (yes, I know the kids say alot of things), and I also know that they trust me... how does he plan on earning their trust... Preaching to them for an hour once a week isn't going to help him out... I hope he has a plan... I know that he is working closly with A so hopefully A can prepare him for wht is going to happen... I wonder how he would have dealt with his car getting keyed 5 times in just 3 months? we would have reacted like a little kid.... he would have gotten angry and quit....I wonder what he would do if someone called him at 11pm and needed to talk... would he get out of bed, drive to their house, sit in the cold, and talk to them; or would he tell them he has to sleep? If he is prepared to be there, then go ahead, but if he thinks this is a one hour a week thing, he is in for a shock.... I will be there when he joins the majority and gives up on them... I will pick up those peices too... and then it will start all over again....

sorry...

I just wanted to add an explination to why the venting post is gone, as I know that a few of you enjoyed it greatly... there are a couple of reasons, the first being that I don't think he would have read it as he probably doesn't read my blog (unless someone sent him a link, which I hope no one did)... the second, and more important reason is that it felt very childish to post the letter for all the world to see, especailly knowing that I have no real intent on giving it to him... I have typed a letter that I might give to him, it seems someone harsh however and there are still some things I am unsure of... if you would like to read it you have my email address so just let me know and I will send you a copy... I was just going to delet the whole venting entry but I think that would also delete the comments that were left and I would not want to lose those so I just deleted the text and kept the entry.... just thought I would let you know.... thanks for all your love, this is a tough situation and I really do want to find the best way to handle it, I just don't think that was the best way....

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

venting...

this post hasbeen removed for various reasons, sorry

Monday, December 06, 2004

a little better...

So I am feeling a little bit better today... went shopping with roo and k. which reminds me that I need to do somthing as soon as I post this... anyway I am done with christmas shopping... thank God... we had fun... so yeah... I am really boring today with not much to talk about... oooooooooooooo Target has Jones soda... that was great!!! other than that nothing eventful.... yeah so that is all...

Sunday, December 05, 2004

here I am...

okay so for those of you keeping track right now I am ANGRY!!!! I could go into it all but I don't feel like it... I am just going to rant to the person/people I am angry at and let you all read it so have fun...

Why do you have to lie? you tell me to find my passion and then do it but when I try you tell me to give up... I am sorry that you have given up, but I can't.... somewhere deep inside I know she is a good kid, I have seen it... why do you have to be like this... I thought we were on to something and we were going to make a difference, but if you just give up because it seems hard then we will never make anything happen... I am not going to give up because she needs someone... I don't care what you think....If it were up to you she would have been dead already, not that I expect you to know that... she trusts me... she knows that I will be there for her... she also knows that even I have my limits, but I would never give up on her... I was called to love her and to be real with her... seems like you were called to tell her ever time she screws up and to tell her she is a bad person... that isn't love... I was fusterated with her, but now I am fusterated with you... I really hate that you can act like you have things figured out and like you are good when you are really just as judgmental as anyone... I have thought about leaving, but I can't leave... if I left who would love her and all the others like her??? sure wouldn't be you... she would slip through the cracks and you would just notice that there is less drama... that isn't what it is all about though... it is about loving each other... i don't see you doing such a great job of that right now though... you are too concerned with other things... I am sorry she is such a bother to you... but you aren't going to keep me from loving her... you can't do that... I won't let you push her away... I don't agree with what she is doing, but that doesn't mean that I don't love her... I am going to be there... I am going to help her put her life back together, with or without your support...

Friday, December 03, 2004

yeah...

so according to bob I am not crazy... that makes me feel better... lets see... what to say.... so Roo and Debra are going to try to go to an event this weekend, but I can't go because I have to go to a Christmas party with him.... yeah fun..... so for the rest of the weekend I will be bored and whiney... but tonight I am going to see roo and we are going to make crazy notes for the boys (ROO DON"T FORGET!!!!) that will be fun...

so I bought Christmas cards and have promised to have them in the mail by Mon., but I realized that I don't have anyones adress or anything... so if you want a damn Christmas card send me your address or you won't get on,k.... so I just spent 2 hours painting plates with the girls that we are going to give to grand parents... I will post some pics when they dry and all...

Oh and I got my USB cable for my camera (stiupid Kodak) thanks to roo!!!! yippie ! so now I don't have to beg my mom to bring her camera over and what not.... so yeah... nothing much going on other than that... I did make some really awesome brownies the other night at like 11pm... they were tastey.... so I guess I am done for now....