more on house churches.....

okay so if we remember corectly it was back in like Nov or Dec that I started thinking, talking about house churches and now look where things are.... I know that I had nothing directly to do with this but it makes me smile and giggle a bit.... I think it is a great direction for us to go in... there is going to be a bit of confusion at the beginning I am sure, because that is how it always is when things change, but in the long run it is going to be GREAT. I think this is where RTPC is supposed to be.... anyways Sunday we will be eating (so what is everyone bringing) and we will be sharing memeories from the past years.... man the memories are abundent.... maybe I will share some here also.... some are good, some are less than good but they are all a part of who I am now.... they have shaped me and made me, ME!!!! I am sure there will be some around here soon

House Churches

okay so for those of you who don't know RTPC is going to go to House Churches.... this is such a God thing!!! I think He has been preparing us for this all along... but I may not be here to see it which makes me sad, but that is life... I have linked the new RTPC blog to up so you can check it out if you wish... there are so many things to say but I shall refrain for now as it is late and I have ALMOST died like 3 times today (lol) bt I am still alive.... I will let you all know that NEXT sunday is the last SERVICE at RTCP then house churches will start... so what do you guys think about house churches? I will post more later

Here they go again

Okay so while hanging out online today I came across something that was troubleing to me... basically it is the purpose driven life for infants and toddlers... First off let me say I have no problem with Rick Warren or Saddleback church... I do believe God is using Saddleback in huge wasys out in CA and hope to get to visit saddleback when I am in CA later this year... but all this purpose driven CRAP is going to far... the basic idea behing the whole thing is a good one, but now many ppl, non-Christan and Christian alike, see it all as a marketing ploy... really, would it have been so bad if they had stopped after the first book? okay I admit that I haven't read all of every book, I read most of one and glanced at the others, but I think that once you have the basic idea of what they are saying you can apply it to all aspects of your life and minisrty without having to buy and read all 19 billion books to make sure you are doing it right... maybe someone who has read all the books could tell me if I am wrong... this just seems like a never ending thing... I mean where will it stop? do we really need purpose driven house cleaning and purpose driven reading of purpose driven books? maybe somethings have a purpose that is easiy enough to figure out and we really don't need a book to tell us... and maybe there are some things in life that have no purpose at all... Purpose Driven Dust Bunnies anyone?

WHY

why do I feel like everyone is better than me... they are all prettier, stronger, and happier (yes can you believe that there are ppl happier than me?) I feel very apathetic today... really don't care about much of anything... I just want to disapear, not die, just stop exsisting... the more I think about things the less I care... maybe it is because I don't know if there is a need to care, being that I don't know how much longer I am going to be here... maybe it is my minds way of preparing me to leave all that I have cared about for so long... maybe my mind has just simple gone on strike until we move and get settle and then it will start allowing me to care again and get attached to new ppl... who knows....

I may go to the zoo tomorrow with Debra, squishy, and debra's family that is in from Nashville... I really don't know if I want to go but I do want to spend time with debra before she leaves... just the thought of meeting new ppl is yucky... not that I think her family is ctazy or anything, just that I don't feel like meeting anyone new right now...

It doesn't seem like anything is going on this weekend.. roo will be sewing for the war, and well, who else do I hang out with... maybe I will catch up with B&C or maybe I will just spend some time alone... I need it after this week... BLAH....

I have watched ND 5 times since sunday... it is a great movie and it never gets old.... "You're just jealous because I have been chatting online with hot babes all day" yeah....

well, mom is off tomorrow, so maybe we will do something with her... who knows... I really want to take the girls to see the Heffelump movie... but I doubt that will happen... maybe I should do something productive.... I did dishes today, that was mildly productive....

WAITING

so I HATE waiting on things, especially whe n I know I have no control over the situation at all. I would rather you just not tell me anything until it happens...Unfortunately I did not get this option... Two weeks ago I was told that we would be moving, but told that we didn't know when or where!!!!! We were given the best guess estimate that it might be in about 2 weeks and it could be to NW Louisiana... And since then NOTHING!!!! so I am just sitting here waiting rather angry at this point that ppl feel that just because you work for them they can mess with your life like this... I mean I understand that they may really not know until 2 days before he is asked to be there, but WHY did they say anything to begin with... I feel like I should be packing, but what if they decided to keep him in this area (which I would love but that is not the point right now)... I have become semi okay with the idea of moving, I just want to go ahead and get it over with already, I don't want to sit around waiting anymore... I want to get on with my life... There are so many things that I can't plan for right now because I have no freakin clue where I am going to be a month from now! UGH! As you can tell this is really getting the best of me... I feel somewhat debilitated by the whole situation... I hate not knowing....

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exhausted....

well, I don't know about having girly group tomorrow... I am just exhausted and I have alot that I really need to do... so if we do have it I will probably not be there... we still don't know when we are moving but that is okay right now because there is so much that I need to get done... I feel like I haven't slept in weeks, or maybe longer, even though I know I have... I think I am going to bed early tonight... I can barely keep my eyes opened now... good night

adventures in hair dying....

here is my new hair...

okay... so we were up til after 4am, and it was alot of work but here is the final result.... I like it... oh and there are some other pics here. it was a great night... I love you guys

busy and fun...

well all we are partying here tonight... anyone can come if you can get here, if you need directions email me, I will probably check it at least one more time before fun begins.... any ways, we watched the Grudge last night... I don't want to talk about it... well, I need to go stir the chili....
oh hair pics will be up by Monday for those of you who can't come see me....

It is done....

okay, I got it cut... and I will post a pick at some point, but not now as it is getting late... maybe I will wait a while to keep you all in suspense... by the way who is coming over tomorrow night. if anyone.... I know that there are ppl coming over Saturday, but what about tomorrow night? let me know... I love you guys

what do you guys think of this? it is a little shorter than I was thinking, but what do you think 

Hair

okay guys I need some imput, I want to get my hair cut (just how short I am not sure) so I want to know what you guys think I should do with it... I could just get a trim, or I could go all out and chop it off... I WILL NOT GET BANGS!!!!!!!!!!! other than that I don't know what I want.... so go ahead, give me some ideas.... Oh and make it quick I want to get it cut tomorrow afternoonish... if I don't do it soon I will never do it, so comment away.... (and for those who have no clue what my hair currently looks like I am sure you can dig up a pic in my archives, probably in November...) so suggest away

Tuesday?

so are we doing girls group? if so, same place same time? or should we go to roo's house to eat all the left overs from Sat night? or is everyone busy this week? let me know... love you guys...

the couch

so as promised here is our new couch...



the new couch


the couch again



stacey one the couch , and isn't her hair just cute... it doesn't look like a mullet today


catlin on the couch, she is eqully as cute

the weekend and other things

so the party was GREAT this weekend, many props to niza and roo!!! the rest of the weekend was someone insane... we got the couch (I really will pst pics soon I just haven't gotten around to taking them yet and currently the couch is under a pile of stuff) it is great.... we also got all the random stuff from forest that his parents gave us, and it was an ordeal getting it all here.... but now it is here and life is good...

SO this coming weekend (18-20) there will be a party at my house house all weekend!!! it is kinda an unoffical going away party... will start Friday night and end sunday... Sat we will be dying hair!!! and other than that we are just going to hang out, wtch movies, and stuff... all are invited, just email me for directions....

this weekend?

Okay gals we just have to do something fun this weekend.... I am really bummed out and need to have fun... Roo and I were talking about a anti valentines day party... watch movies, play games, and stuff. Sat night ..... who's up for it? come on lets have fun

sad things....

Well for all of those who know my hubby is awaiting his own office... he was told by the big man today that it would be soon. How soon you ask, well within the next couple of weeks more than likely. and we was told by, the not quite as big but almost, man that it was looking like NW LA (no not Los Angles, but louisiana) this is trumatic for me... I don't want to move to stinking NW LA... I don't want to move at all!!!!!!!!! and with everything else that is going on this is really the last thing I need... there are some good points but right now I am chosing to be tramatized by the whole thing... once he is moved they will put him up in a hotel for up to 60 days to give us a chance to figure out what to do and move.... so then it is looking like I will be moving in less than 3 months... I don't know that I can take this... I really don't... I am going to need lots of support and this screws everything up... I will move though and things will work out, but it is going to be hard!!!! I just want to cry, but I can't and I hate that... we haven't even been in this place for a whole year yet (we have been in pearl but not this house) I am tired of moving... I don't want to do it anymore... and now we are going to be going to somewhere that I don't know anyone... I am going to have to start all over... I can't do this again.... I need sleep... BLAH

I'm better, REALLY...

I am feeling better today, really! I don't feel as disconnected and crappy... still don't know what happened... I figure it was all just in my head... I don't know why I get like that... but now I am better so life will go back to normal until next time..

what the crap is going on....

sorry if this makes no sense to you guys just need to vent without saying too much....


I feel like shit... I don't remember alot of things that happened... what is going on with me? I woke up this morning and didn't know how I got into bed... last thing I remember was sitting here being online at like 11pm... then I woke up in bed... there were other strange things but I will leave out those details for now... I know it is all my fault... but why do I get like this... I just wish he would have stayed up so I could tell him what happened, but instead he got all mad and was in bed before I got home, which caused me to freak out and pretty much lose my mind for a while.... someone told me earlier that maybe I should think of doing some inpatient treatment somewhere... What the crap? I couldn't do that I have kids that need to be taken care of and a house that would never get clean... who cares if I am crazy anyways.... so that is what happened (kinda)

also mom did buy us a couch today but since it is raining we will not be picking it up until the weekend... that what I won't have to try to carry the thing inside by myself... or maybe I will have to do that anyway, but that is another story...

so what am I going to do? probably the same thing I always do, agonize over what to do until eventually I feel better and I don't think I need to do anything until this happens again...

babies and other things

now for the real post...

Okay so the topic of babies has been running in and invading alot of my conversations lately... how many babies is too many? am I going to have more babies? ppl are planning on having babies... and the topic of birth control has also been coming up alot lately.... so I thought that I would talk about it here amongst friends and total strangers alike....

so how many babies is too many? depends on who you are... I don't think I have reached too many yet, but I think I will know when I get there... for some ppl one is too many, but others can have like 6 or something...

am I going to have more babies? I think so... I don't know when, and I am not keeping anything fro you... it is just a thought... I will let you know when it happens though...

I have a question for those that are planning on having babies though, seeing how I have not planed the previous ones that I have acquired. is it easier planning them? also how is it emotionally and mentally when you plan to get pregnant? how do you plan emotionally for pregnancy? I was thinking that I might plan the next one but I also think it would be very emotionally taxing so let me know...

and now... BIRTH CONTROL... this conversation line was started on a message board the other day and it made me think of a conversation with a bunch of unmarried, ppl about a year ago... The question that started both dialogues was "What is God's take on birth control?" I still don't know that I have worked out all my feelings on this, and I think it is a personal decision that you and God and your spouse have to come to... I personally haven't taken birth control in a year and a half and I haven't gotten pregnant, but I think that is because God knows I am not ready for another kid... I conceived both of the kids I have while I was on birth control so I don't care for it much... plus it makes me all sick and stuff... I don't think there is anything morally wrong with most birth control... I am against abortions and the morning after pill... other than that it is a personal thing I guess... what do you guys think...

okay, so we have established that I will have another baby someday and I don't take birth control... anything else you guys want to know? now that I have rambled on and on I think I should stop now before I go into horror stories from pregnancies past...

flip-flops and rainy days

ok so this isn't the most interesting thing I have to post but it needs to be said... BE VERY CAREFUL WHEN WEARING FILP-FLOPS IF IT HAS BEEN RAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it, seriously. I would avoid filp-flops completely if it is raining... see today I was wearing y cool new filp-flops cuz my sneakers were in the van still and I was just going to mom's house and when I was leaving her house I fell on her wet porch and alost died, seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!! but I think I will live... they might have to cut my foot off though... it hurts really bad... so yeah don't wear flip-flops in rain...

back

okay it is monday.... I got home last night in time for church.... seems like there is alot of catching up to do after being gone for one weekend, but I don't feel like it.... so I am just going to go on with life... It was a good weekend... lots of fun... well I need to clean the house now...

there will be church this sunday... A said that he didn't think that many ppl cared about football... did he read your blog Debra?

Finding church...

so here lately I have been finding church in the most unexpected places.... God never ceases to amaze me at how He makes himself know at the least expected times, in the least expected places... God is truely amazing....church is more than a building or even a group of ppl that get together once a week and pretend to like each other for an hour.. church is a family... they support each other... no matter where everyone is your church is there for you... Okay so maybe that isn't how church happens most of the time, but I have seen it happen like that here lately and I know that it is just what I needed... it is very refreshing to see ppl that can really can be a church, without a building or structured meeting time even...we just get together, hang out, start talking, and BAM church happens... we laugh together cry together, and encourage each other... I am so glad I have this... I wish everyone knew just what I was talking about... but in time... I just feel really loved right now, even though some ppl are stupid, and others a bit freaky, I know that I have family.... real church...

from the weird to the rude...

what is with ppl... first of all I got this insanely weird message from someone that I don't know.. then someone that I do know was increadably rude to me for no apperant reason. What the crap!!! oh well... I have gotten alot of nice little encouraging thoughts, in different forms, from many nice ppl.... that is what it is all about.... building each other up... it isn't about pretending to like ppl, or hanging out all the time, it is about being there when they need you... saying something helpful, not hurtful... loving each other...