life is still really painful in my little section of the world... it's hard to be around ppl right now, especially alot of ppl. as of right now I have had no real human interaction since saturday night, and I think i am ok with that. Saturday was really overwhelming, I think I am still recovering from it, and my bed is the only place that feels safe enough to deal with all of this..... ugh... i know this isn't good but this is all i have right now...