Different lifetime

Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.... to go back and read things I wrote 10 yrs ago... I don't remember 10 yrs ago, and I don't really care to... it was a whole different life, or at least that is how it seems when I go back and read the things that a scribbled on sheets of paper, napkins, and torn paper bags.... I guess that is what happens when you grow up, all the thngs from your past seem like a different life... it is tough reading about things that happened then.... It makes me cry to know who I was... and then there is the ocassional thing that makes me long to be in that life again... it was a different reality that I lived in.... and in some odd way I loved it there... But I can't go back... We can never really go back to the past... we can't redo our mistakes, or relive any of the greaat times.... they are all ust memories, even if only on paper, and not in our minds.... it is going to take a while to sift through the past 10 yrs of my life.... but when I finish I will let you know how it turned out....