Wednesday, March 02, 2005

times like this

it is times like this when I really hate life.... I wonder why I was allowed to live this long.... I know that everything happens for a reason but this sucks.... I just want to go away, somewhere that there are no ppl... just me.... thinking out loud.... this makes no sense to you, but that is okay.... I haven't done anything yet (so you can put your minds at ease for now) but I know this day is just going to get worse, so who knows what will happen.

I had an awful dream last night... basically he left and took the girls with him... then I killed myself... would this ever happen in real life.... who knows.... it makes me sad though....

1 comment:

roo roo said...

lisa, what did i tell you a few weeks ago. this still applies. it is your choice to still be misrible. you can get help. life can be better.