Sunday, December 05, 2004

here I am...

okay so for those of you keeping track right now I am ANGRY!!!! I could go into it all but I don't feel like it... I am just going to rant to the person/people I am angry at and let you all read it so have fun...

Why do you have to lie? you tell me to find my passion and then do it but when I try you tell me to give up... I am sorry that you have given up, but I can't.... somewhere deep inside I know she is a good kid, I have seen it... why do you have to be like this... I thought we were on to something and we were going to make a difference, but if you just give up because it seems hard then we will never make anything happen... I am not going to give up because she needs someone... I don't care what you think....If it were up to you she would have been dead already, not that I expect you to know that... she trusts me... she knows that I will be there for her... she also knows that even I have my limits, but I would never give up on her... I was called to love her and to be real with her... seems like you were called to tell her ever time she screws up and to tell her she is a bad person... that isn't love... I was fusterated with her, but now I am fusterated with you... I really hate that you can act like you have things figured out and like you are good when you are really just as judgmental as anyone... I have thought about leaving, but I can't leave... if I left who would love her and all the others like her??? sure wouldn't be you... she would slip through the cracks and you would just notice that there is less drama... that isn't what it is all about though... it is about loving each other... i don't see you doing such a great job of that right now though... you are too concerned with other things... I am sorry she is such a bother to you... but you aren't going to keep me from loving her... you can't do that... I won't let you push her away... I don't agree with what she is doing, but that doesn't mean that I don't love her... I am going to be there... I am going to help her put her life back together, with or without your support...

1 comment:

roo roo said...

feel any better now?