I was just thinking about you... how we hadn't talked in a while... and how you always made me smile when we did talk... I was wondering how you are... and if you are thinking of me... I hope that you are well... and I wonder if you still love me... I wonder if you ever really did... I miss you... I wish that we could be close... I wish that I could just pick up the phone and call, or get in my car and drive to see you... I wonder if I could do anything to change the way things are... I wonder why I am drawn to you like this... I know that this is deep... and I know that if people read this they will think that I am an aweful person... but if that is what they think they don't know me.... and none of them know how YOU are... It is raining now... that makes me think of you even more... one day I know that I will wake up from this dream that I call life and I will be in your arms... until then... I will be here... thinking of you and remembering how wonderful you are... I LOVE YOU... I just wanted you to know that....