Tuesday, November 23, 2004

reply...

this is for you roo... I thought about replying in my comments section but then decided to just make it a hole entery on its own..

I am not really angry or at least not right now... I am feeling very dicouraged and apathetic... lots of things are contributing to this but I think most of all it is just me... don't worry about me though... I do know that happiness is just a state of mind, I just haven't been very enthusiastic about getting there lately... I feel like I spend so much of my time pretending to be happy that when I blog, or write anything for that matter, I have to get out all the unhappy stuff... I don't know if that makes any sense, but that is how it is... I really wish that I could act how I feel, but I really don't want to do that because it would piss someone off or people would really think I was going crazy... sometimes I think I am going crazy... Maybe I just try too hard... I don't know... I just want things to be okay... with me... with everyone... anyways... that is all...


5 comments:

Bob said...

blah.. hmrnm.. where to begin...

since we all know that the world revolves around me.. and since i check your blog for updates like.. every half hour or so when i am on the computer (which is like.. all the time in houghton.. but i've been spending much needed time with liz since i've gotten here..).. that must mean that you are one of the special people in the universe...or at least in my little world...

ok.. seriously now ...there are people who are interested and concerned with your well being.. i am one of them.. so is roo..

and i really didnt mean to drag you into all of this drama crap... i didnt intend for any of it to happen.. but yeah.. the road to hell is paved with good intentions....

hmmrnm.. im rambling now.. this comment had a point.. i just seem to have lost it...

mistic_mommy said...

thanks bob I did need that... it wasn't all that crap that stared this though (it could have added to it, but not alot) alot of stuff is going on... alot of stuff has changed... yeah... but thanks, it is nice to know that someone care...:)

roo roo said...

hugs for everyone. who needs to pay for counseling when you have a blog? the answer: me :P so are we doing your "thankful" idea tmrw while we dye your hair. i'm very stoked about doing your hair btw.

mistic_mommy said...

we are deffinatly going to be talking while dying my hair (which I am stoked about also) I am going to cook something to eat too... it will be fun... talk to you soon

roo roo said...

ooh food. cook us something good for group lisa!