Monday, January 03, 2005

not much better...

have you ever had someone (well, okay just about everyone you know) telling you they loved you but still you felt very unloved.... I don't know why I feel like this... I guess it just seems like, with recent events and all, that there is always someone or something more improtant than me... I know that is really true, but sometimes it seems like it... there is also always someone better than me... grrrrrrrrrrrrr.... I hate feeling like this... it guess it will be okay... I will eventually be better... I guess it willjust take some time... yeah...

in other news I applied for some jobs out in CA today... we can't move til at least June, but hey I can start looking, right? none of them I really want that much, but hey, it is a start huh? I don't even know if we will move, but yeah... we will see what happens.... hmmmmmmmmmmm...

1 comment:

Ruby Anne said...

i was about to post something.. but i've forgotten now because of the lack of sleep. i dont know if i'm going to make it at work tonight.